Friday, June 6, 2008

SELF-INDULGENT TALK!

Okay, so where have I been lately? I haven’t been in blogland! I haven’t been in my workroom! I haven’t been working on projects! I just haven’t been anywhere! I’ve been in a funk! A totally self absorbing funk ….Beyond just the normal everyday clatter in my head, I’ve just not been able to focus on anything.

  • There are issues with our son ….forever ongoing and it gets me quite distressed. You would think that at 28 there would be fewer issues.
  • There are issues with my workroom …I want it to be clean and well organized.
  • There are issues with my on-going projects ….I want them done.
  • And ….there are issues with me trying to come up with something clever and artistic that I can sell. I really beat myself up about this one. When it comes to trying something new, or starting something new; I’m totally the analytical, logical one. I over analyze, I over think and in the end I don’t accomplish anything. That is no way for a creative mind to think!
All of this, hanging over me like some dark rain cloud.
After weeks of wandering the house, after weeks of beating myself up, after weeks of keeping it all inside, I’ve finally see a small light through the dark clouds. You see, I’m one of those individuals that keep it all inside …I stew, I brew ….I become very quiet.

I awoke the other day and finally decided ENOUGH! Enough self indulgence, enough mulling over, I’ve decided to just let it all go. I know that there will always be issues with our son and we get through those each and every time. My workroom is no Martha Stewart …but, I know where everything is and after all; it is a workroom. It’s meant to be the way it is. I think I’m influenced too much by those crafty sites I see with workrooms all neat and organized. In reality, who works in those rooms?


My projects are just that! They are projects …that means they are in-progress and that they will someday be completed.

As for trying to find a niche in the sales department, I will just have to follow my heart and one day I hope it will take me to my niche. I will approach my workroom not with a logical mind, but with an artistic mind in hopes that the ideas will then flow.


Well, that’s it in a nutshell! Thanks for listening to my self-indulgent ranting! This is something that I don’t normally do …open up about it. So thank you for listening. I promise that I will be back soon with something artistic and fun to show you.

A few projects that are just hanging around! So many projects .....so little time!

Well now, the workroom does look a bit busy! A girl just needs it all, doesn't she?

12 comments:

Diane said...

Wow lots on your plate but you must relax!!I enjoyed reading your post and I could feel your frustrations dear lady.Take heart better days ahead, you must think positive.Easier said than done maybe.
Take care,
Diane
http://dianobe.blogspot.com/

PAT said...

I hope you have an exceptionally lovely weekend!

I understand how frustrating it gets and I don't mind listening at all. Wishing for sunshine days, for you!

Pat

carolyn said...

You're not alone...we ALL go through it. I think artsy folks need down time or shall I say have creative cycles. It's frustrating but this too will pass. So clean up...tidy up...read a book...take a walk...a bath and know that inspiration will strike again! We're here when it does (or doesn't!)

Alison Gibbs said...

Sorry you have been feeling 'down'. No matter how old our kids get we still hurt when having to deal with some things in their lives.
Hope the creative juices start flowing soon.
Take care
Alison

Susan said...

Hi,
Can you email me about your order, please? Did I miss sending it out somehow?

I just need your email address:)

Sorry about that.
Susan Anderson

Laura said...

Alice, I wish you weren't so hard on yourself! I hope you have let go a little bit, God knows no one's life is perfect - in any area!

The bottom line is, you are a great mom and an incredibly creative woman!

P.S. I myself haven't attempted anything creative in over two years - I'm at a complete standstill and so overwhelmed I don't know where to start. You see, the ideas have been flowing, the actions haven't. Now I'M a mess! :)

Lisa S. Oceandreamer said...

Been there, done that. You are right in what you are saying to yourself.........be true to YOU. Let it flow naturally. I haven't put anything in my Etsy shop yet....I am far too hard on myself. I find when I force art it resists. My studio was redone but does it look perfect all the time?...heck no. It's just a matter of having things accessible and easy to put back.
We all have days and times like this - what you feel is very real and I think by venting it is very cathartic to get it out....then let it go. You know?
Great things are in you.....
(I hope whatever ups/downs with your son soon sort themselves out)

Junie Moon said...

Life can indeed be challenging at times. I like the way you acknowledge the things that bother you because, to me, that's half the battle of dealing with worries. Like you, I've given up trying to emulate other folks' workrooms. Mine is what it is and works for me--and ultimately that's really what it should do.

ShabbyInTheCity said...

You described my recent frame of mind too...it is so hard! Hang in there :)

Kathleen Grace said...

I think we have all been there, I know I have. I heard a lot of crickets chirping with my first etsy offerings, didn't sell a thing. Don't give up, keep your eye open for creative ideas that you can adapt and make your own. Remember that the bible says "there is nothing new under the sun." I once had someone tell me that every artist could make the same project and it would come out different every time, just put your own spin on things:>) It will come.

Annie said...

omigosh, we should sit on a porch and split a bottle of the fruit of the vine and swap stories. The good news is that you came to all the right decisions. It never hurts to just "give into it" sometimes. Once we are done with our pity party, we can march on like the good little soldiers that we are. After all, we are women and we all know how to keep going. The cool thing is that we also know how to make the turns to pursue change when it presents itself to us. Good luck on finding that sales niche. Annie

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